dear paul p3

Hi Paul, seeing as you may be reading this blog let me describe how I am feeling after resigning my job. I am so scared I am going to end up poor and hungry again like I was as a kid. I am also missing the intimacy we shared like crazy as I never had anyone hug or care for me ever. I have been ignoring this need and going into shutdown mode where I walk around like a zombie and not care because of how much I am hurting from losing you and from the frustration of being bullied by my boss. except today I had a teary at ork because I saw a stupid meme on facebook about 'wanting to sleep in his arms all night' and I lost it. Because all I want is everything to be okay. But its going to take time.